What a pain do a letter of apology say. I'm a total pain, everyone around me. I don't want to be a pain in anyone's eyes. I can't stand to be around people who are making me feel bad. I call this delusional self- blaming disorder. It's a psychological disorder in which people are so afraid of making others feel bad that they won't even notice they're doing something wrong. Self-blamers are so scared of making people feel bad, that they'll make them feel bad when they flush their toilet. If I become a main character, the readers wouldn't lose interest in me, and I'd ruin everything for everyone. The cross roads of self-blame ! There you are, da parg, shudder i's so sorry . I must've done something that made you felt bad . is the clerk a self- blamer too. Is the car dealer too ? is the person who sold you the car too blameless ? are we making trouble for everyone else? The car dealer, he says, is the one who sells you a bad car. Are we just making a mistake for the other side of the world? Is it just us? I've gotta move as far away as possible. If we stay in Japan any longer, we'll ruin the rail system 10 km ahead of the island of Okayinawa for everyone to live on. I apologize for being so hot in the morning, but wait, it's just because I live in a hot country. At the end of the chapter, the narrator says, "it was my fault" .