The narrator tells us that the dinner was arranged by the family, but that the family's parents were allowed to walk through the front door. The narrator says that he's jealous, because the family has a lot of power and wealth. He says that his life is like this: when facing misfortune, he can't bear it silently, and when facing his foster parents, he has to bear it quietly. When facing the gong, the narrator says, he cannot get drunk, otherwise he'll be mad if he doesn't answer the gong's calls. He's a loser, he says, because his adoptive parents abandoned him, and he has no hope of ever having a life of his own.