"I'm fucked" , says the narrator. He's been having sex with his childhood friend, and he's ready to leave. He wants to make sure that the sex isn't going to be too intense, so he decides to "prick" the sex with a penis. The narrator says that he wants his friend's "sperm" to be so intense that it makes him want to "cum inside" . The sex is so intense, in fact, that the narrator wants to "suck" his penis and have sex with it. He says that if the sex doesn't go as he wants it to, he'll have to "muddle" it so that he can "cum-in" the penis .