The narrator is on an outing with some of his friends. He's having sex with one of his childhood friends, and he's not happy about it. He says that the friend is hot, and that if he moves, he'll "slide wham pant" . The narrator says that if the friend moves, the narrator will "smile a little" , and then he says that he just "moved a little . . but . you came already?" . He then says that his mind is going to "slap slap blank," and that he wants the friend to just "look at me." The narrator wants to squeeze the friend's hand, but he can't, because the friend has already slapped him. He wants only to "squeeze slap sl slap ." He wants to see the friend only, and not see anyone else. He tells the friend that he loves him, and wants to be his "sanctuario." He tells him to "just look at me," and