Chapter 111 begins with a flashback to the beginning of the novel, in which the narrator explains that he has changed his ways. He wants to change the way Akakun sees him, so that he will no longer think of him as a "deviant" . He tells the reader that he wants to be able to talk to Akun without being thought of as a pedophile. He also wants to erase all of the horrible things he has done in the past. He asks the reader to remember that he is not a "pedo" , but rather a "sister." The narrator then tells Akun that he must remember who he really is. He reminds him that if he does not remember his past, he will not remember what it was like to be a child.