Until Your Bones Rot

The chapter opens with a flashback to the night of Haruka's murder. The narrator tells us that he is ashamed of what he has done to Haruka and apologizes for his behavior. He says that he did not want Haruka to kill his father, but that he was worried that Haruka might still be hurting him behind his back. Haruka tells the narrator that he thought it was only a mistake when he told kitahama that it was not a mistake, and that it continued until Haruka died. He apologizes to the narrator for the pain he has caused him, and the narrator forgives him. He tells Haruka that two years ago, he came to his house and slept with him to forget the pain that he had caused him. When he woke up, he felt dirty and lonely, and he wanted to make Haruka feel better. He told Haruka he would never do such a thing again, and Haruka agreed to do it. He explains that he held on to this belief because he was his only salvation, and because Haruka turned him away, he held it in. But Haruka reminds him that it is not like Haruka ever suffered, because he could not drag everyone into his mess. He points out that akira had wanted to be like him, because his parents were too harsh on him. Because his father was the mayor of the city, the other children bullied him and he felt like he was a role model for them. He was afraid that they would think of him as a traitor, and so he decided to kill him. The narration ends with the narrator explaining that he killed Haruka so that he would not turn himself in. He had offered Haruka his body, but Haruka still felt that he needed more. He took over.