"I'ma beautiful, talented writer, now" , says hanana. "If anyone sees this," she says, "not only will the illness be broken . . but . will crush me" . She's not worried about anyone finding out about her secret, because she's "a beautiful writer now" and she doesn't want anyone to find out about it. The women in hanana's class always hang out with her and talk about her, but they don't say anything about it, because they're afraid of what people will think of them if they find out. She tells herself that she can't stop doing what she does, because it's just like a diary with someone else. She says that the women in her class have always gone out of their way to treat her with kindness, even when she was a kid, and that's why she was so happy when she received a gift from one of them. She also says that she once wrote a letter to a gift recipient, but the recipient didn't sign her name, so she had to pretend to be a kid to get the letter back. "So happy for them kindness," hanana says. "Magna they never signed their name," she sighs. "Who could it be?" she asks. "The stylist," she wonders. "Can't you be the one who's calling her?" . "Sorry, be right back," she replies. "Sure