The chapter opens with a flashback to a time when the Governess was a child. The Governess's mother had never admitted that she was sadder than her son, but she had always been a very sad person. Now that she is older, she realizes that her son's sadness is uncontrollable, and she stops talking about it. She finally finds their current address and works harder to find out information about her brother in secret. She is very happy that she can see him, but there are a lot of things to look forward to in the future. When she regains consciousness, she hears a bang in the distance. Her heart hurts so badly that she thinks she is going to die. Her sight is getting blurred, and her ears are ringing with pain. The pain seems not just from the body but also from a place in the heart. She wonders if she will never see her family again. She imagines meeting her brother for the first time. He is born with her in this world, but he has never known her before. He imagines the clothes he will wear, the hairstyle he will do, and the words he will say when he meets her. He knows that if he survives, he will come find her. If he dies, he wonders if his mother was wrong, because boys are not allowed to express their love in this way. She cooks delicious food for him, and he buys her beautiful clothes and jewelry every time he goes home. He tells his brother that he is his loyal fan and that they are no longer alone.