The chapter opens with a soliloquy by the narrator, who tells the reader that he's been thinking about his decision to leave the company. He admits that he was grateful that he had the freedom to make his own decision, but he realizes that he didn't have enough time to think through all the options before he made the final decision. He realizes that they could have talked about other options, but that he wasn't sure what his answer would be. He also admits that, at the time, he was confused about what to do with his life. He knows that he limited his options, and that he wanted to do something with his career. He's not sure why he did it, and he doesn't know how to get in his way. He asks why he never contacted him after he left, and why he hasn't contacted her since he left. He wonders why he can't make himself do what he thinks he should be doing, even though he tries, and wonders why the vice president of the company is calling him right now. The narrator wonders if he'd made a mistake in making the decision to go, and if he can remember when he made it.