In the midst of all the chaos, the pup realizes that he's too attached to Miss mira. He's waiting for her to die so that he can marry her. He doesn't understand why she's so persistent about him for so long. He says he'll have whatever he wants, regardless of what sacrifices it takes. The pup is shocked that the Lapis nation has created monsters like this. He thinks that the headmaster blew them all away in one fell swoop. He blames himself for everything that's happened to him. He wishes he'd never been born, so he wouldn't be in the mess he is in now. He wonders where he has been taken, and wonders if he would have survived if he hadn't been killed by the lapis monster.