"I've never had a lover" , the narrator tells us. He's never had sex with anyone, but he's had a crush on her. She's taken all his firsts, and now she's too ashamed to tell anyone about it. "You took all of my firsts," he says. "No matter how happy I was, i just was full of were / Mutu al . . / I was too embarrassed to be honest" . The narrator is sorry, too. He says he never meant to hide the fact that he fell for her, but it was too frus-trating. "Kiss kiss po- huff / tremble / in ah / sucks not / my