De studying yaoi manga with my body asks what happened. He feels like he's been let down by the guy who's supposed to be his lover. He wants to know why he didn't just say, "Hey, I'm fine with love. I just said I was fine with... unrequited love." Dejected, he asks if the guy still thinks that he just acted on an act. He asks if he still thinks the guy is just on an "act" . The guy replies that he has had feelings of unrequited love for a long, long time, and he doesn't want him to worry about it anymore. He says that he made the guy draw yaoi to make him fall for him, and that's what made him fall in love with the guy in the first place. He wonders if it's okay for a guy to be so passionate about something so "dreamy-like" , and if love is even okay for something as "real" as this . He's shocked that the guy would be so hard on him. He thinks that if he'd been more gentle with him, he would have said, "I love you, too" instead of, "You're so hard." He also wonders if he was more harsh in the sex scenes than usual, because he usually likes to be gentle with people, and this time around, he wants to be more "willing to hold" love from his lover, so he'll do whatever he can to get it.