The scene opens with a flashback to the moment in which the narrator is hit on the head by a "knoby guy" . The narrator tells the audience that he was "sort of envied" by the narrator's family, who were "positive" and "strongly knit" in their belief that the narrator would be able to "control his damn self" if he "used" the narrator. He says that he knew the narrator was "awful" and that his family was "tightly knit," but that he did not want to use the narrator because he was afraid that his "desire would be satisfied" if the narrator used him. He adds that both he and the narrator had forgiven each other in a "social that can be, and human sense," and that the moment he touched the man's skin, "nothing else mattered." The narrator admits that he is "worse of guilt" than he was