The narrator tells us that he thinks preference is right, but that it's hard to know why. He says that when he gets someone of the opposite sex, he gets turned on. He thinks that he got turned on because he felt that men were at peace, and that's when he realized that he wasn't as sexy as he used to be. He tried everything he could think of to get himself back to his old self, but he couldn't. The narrator says that he was shy in high school, so he didn't make friends there. He also says that his mom's decision to send him away to college was final, and he doesn't think he'll be able to make friends in school. He's determined to go to college because he wants to do something different. He decides that he's going to study how to be self-sufficient. He dyes his hair, reads a lot, and goes to the salon to change his appearance. He realizes that he can't eat what his mom won't allow him to, and so he has to do it by returning system swipes. He wants a reference book, and his smartphone gets checked randomly no matter how many times he swipes it. It's not that bad, he says, but it was his first rebellious phase.