It's the first kiss of the chapter, and the narrator is so happy that it's her first time having sex that she wants to do it "properly" . She wants to make sure that she's doing it right, but she can't seem to figure out how to stop the kiss. She's afraid that the kiss is going to make her look like a sissy, and she'd rather not put it in her mouth. But then she realizes that she has a lot of tissues lying around, so she decides to give it a try anyway. She kisses him, and he kisses her back, but he's so