In the second part of his soliloquy, Ching-ying tries to explain why he lost. He says that he wanted to destroy the entire system of gods and release the slaves from their masters. He also wants to get revenge for killing his own clan and for trampling on their dignity. He tells us that the reason he lost is because he likes Ming-liang. In other words, he doesn't care what happens to him now that he's in love with him. The sky is falling apart, and the dungeon is collapsing.