The narrator begins this chapter by asking the reader to imagine that azuma is practicing sex with a teacher. The narrator explains that he was born with a tendency to see the color red, and that when he was in a grade school art class, he asked the teacher to show him his fire truck. When the teacher showed him it was mud colored, the narrator became the object of bullying, and he began skipping school. He tells the reader that he wanted to be a teacher so that he would be able to convey his passion through words, and so that the reader would understand the meaning of his words. He says that passion can be conveyed through words alone, but that passion also can be expressed to the reader, and the meaning made through words can fill the reader with passion. He adds that he wants to be someone that can convey this passion, and this is why he became the teacher. He wants to show off his clumsy side in front of his lover, but he is unable to express his gratitude to the teacher because he is afraid that the man will only make him an adult, and not a courageous and strong man