The chapter opens with a flashback to a time when Antanas was called "ye mommy" . It's clear that this is a reference to the time when she was pregnant with her son. The flashback also shows that the time was a time of great turmoil for the family. The narrator tells us that she is "overwhelmed" by the events of the past few days. She's also worried about the future. She worries about her son and her relationship with him. She also worries about the rumors that have been floating around about her and Antana's relationship. She wonders why a woman would put such a label on herself. She knows that she has a lot of money, and she can shoot a famous director's film. But she also knows that her life is full of "misery" and "stirring up trouble." She wonders what to do about the "suck" label. She thinks that only losers would think of her as a "goddess," and she wonders how a woman could live unaffected by "worldly temptations." She also wonders about the fact that she can't even believe that Antana