"Don't Look Away," the narrator tells us, is about as sexy as you're going to find in this chapter. He's watching a guy who's about to give him a "prick rub" , and he's totally freaked out. He wants to know what's going on, but he doesn't want to be the one to tell the guy to "shimmer" or "swallow" . He just wants to "scare" the guy into doing it. The narrator's got a lot on his mind right now: he wants to be in love with the guy, and the guy's not going to let him get away with it. So, he decides to watch the guy "shudder" his way through the whole thing.