In this chapter, the narrator stands by his beliefs. He knows that Hiroki left him to die earlier than he did, and he knows that their lives have been incomprehensible from the beginning. He wants to know why Hiroki didn't marry him. He tells him that he loved him for it, but he could tell that the longer he lived with him, the more boring he was. He says that he was enraged that he never posed to him, because he never tried to get his life together. He adds that he had a "terrible eye for men" and that he wanted to meet another man like him. From now on, he says, he's going to be himself. He remembers when Hiroki tried to butter him up, but it was the opposite, like a million times. He's waiting for the perfect opportunity to destroy the version of him he put up on the pedestal. He goes on to say that one day, he will make Hiroki admit that he is cool.