"Bathhouse cowgirl sex," the narrator tells us, is just some "dumbass," "perverted," and "no good guy" who's just trying to "fight with that" . But he's got some good news: "I've always loved deep down," he says, "but I think I've been pretending not to notice." He's thrilled, but he also knows that "honoka" and "sei" are great friends, but "because of that," he only wants "you to look at me, hug, me, too, touch, me too, kiss smack, flinch, twitch l twitch, thought I should wash you, too shiver ." Ouch.