It's been a while since we've heard from the narrator, and now he's feeling a little guilty. He's had enough of being bossy, and he can't stand the thought of letting her do whatever she wants. He tells himself that he'll do whatever he wants, but now that he feels guilty, he doesn't even want to look at the woman's face. He says that he has no choice but to continue what he has been doing. He tries to make himself feel better by saying that he used to do the same thing with the old lady, but it was painful and he didn't enjoy it. But now, he says, he has to do it with the new woman, and it's painful and it drives him crazy. He decides that if he opens the door,