In this chapter, the narrator complains to himself about his life. He's depressed because he's been "drunk" by a lot of debt, and he feels like he has no choice but to go to a "self-help" shop to get his "heart repaired" . He asks the woman at the self-help shop if she's ready to "pick up my heart" , and she says yes, but that she'll have it ready "anytime you need ." The narrator is bummed out that he has to leave his friends and family behind, and that he can't "go back to reality." He wants to "live a quiet, peaceful life," and he wants to be able to "grow his own food, and live a peaceful, quiet life . . hopefully, i won1t exist 10 years from now," he says. He wishes he could go back to the way he was when he was younger, but he doesn1t have the money to do so. He also wishes he had a mental coach to help him "kill rising, red, and black," which is how he came to be in debt in the first place.