12 Days

The next day, Dr. Cici asks if he's been drinking the ashes, and he says that he has, but that it's a "short and intensive" ritual. He's not sure why, but he doesn't want to waste it. He tells the doctor that his sister is the most trusted person in the world, and that he would have brought the ashes to him if he thought otherwise. The doctor tells him that he is "too sugared up" to kick his "sexist ass" , and the two talk about how lucky they are to have each other. He says that since the "noah thing" happened, he has been looking for his sister, and now that she's gone, he wants to know how he is. He asks if anyone knows where he is, and when he says no, he says, "just you . . tall and lean like a sunflower" . She had curly hair that covered her face, and her limbs that "coiled into my dreams." She was warm and healthy, and she had a pulse that he couldn't measure from his own chest. He adds, " her warm neck, and breast against his back, her pulse, i couldnt tell from my own . her." The doctor asks if there's going to be a holiday party at his place tomorrow, and then he asks what the noise is all about, and what's the deal with it? He says if he goes to bed, he'll have the ashes added to his body. He wants to see if he can see his sister in his dreams after he drinks the ashes. He thinks that if he eats eggs, he will see her in his dream, and if he drinks milk, she will see him in her dream. He wonders if he should drink more of the ashes with red wine, and wonders