In this chapter, the narrator asks the reader to make love to the man he is obsessed with because he is a "male porn star" . He tells the reader that he was able to "silence" these kinds of "things" up until now because he was "able to shrug these kind of things off" , but now that he is "so popular" he wants to ask him if he has a girlfriend. The narrator asks if he is sure that he will someday find someone he likes, and he hopes that someday he will be able to do so. He wants to tell the reader how he feels about his relationship with the man. He says that after they started living together, he found out that the man was bad with mornings and had a routine that he followed every day. He was happy that he learned many things about the man that he did not know before, but then, without thinking of his feelings, he trusted him more than before. He asks to know when his feelings are hurt, and the narrator explains that he understands the man's desire to "hide" their relationship. He explains that even though he hates it, he understands how people would "think of" them, and that he has accumulated many things in his life, like his "homosexual relationship" and his job as a co-worker. He knows that someday, the man will have to "stop being able" to "tolerate it," and he wants the man to "hug like how he understands me." He wants him to squeeze him, so that if he ever regrets his relationship, he will not be able "to tolerate it." He says he will never leave the man either.