Awkwardly, the narrator describes himself as "planty of optimism pretty careless" . He notes that his handwriting is "muddled" , and that his face is "loose , wavy, one length, parted at the center . . loose brows , withoute makeup , one time sleep doesnt wake up until morning , not easily slanted eves, a bitte w modest boobs, closer to a b office worker, heaps low rank , can help others but useless at care for herself , remains mellow . is "a bit of a dad , dresses up for outing , but very rough at home, sloppy , loves food and drink , soft spoken , wears non-prescription outside , family sized apartment , both living on the 3 rd floor , long at back , hair cut , speaks gently, like a lady , curls in , out randomly ." He also mentions that he probably shouldn t have kissed azusa when they were drunk, and he says that he thinks it's "bad" that she told him to "forget about it ." The narrator says that if she had meant it, he would have been more careful, but that he's already let go of her. He thanks her for her support, but he wonders if she'll be able to "completely give up hope" if she doesn't see him again.