Back at school, the narrator laments the fact that her father is so proud of his high school achievements that he doesn't want her to be as good as he was. He's so proud, in fact, that he'll be furious with her if she ever does anything like he did. The narrator is so upset that she can't stop thinking about the picture of her father in the mirror. She thinks that if she could be like him, she wouldn't be abandoned by her mother, and she'd never have a breakdown like that. She's back at school and is so happy to be home that she's even more upset when she sees that no one is looking at her. She feels like he's going to make fun of her for being home alone, but she thinks it's actually a good thing that he hasn't been watching. She also thinks that he was always kind to other people, and he was stubborn sometimes, but always did the "right things" he was supposed to do. It's the first time in her life that she spoke up against her assignments, and it was the end of the summer of high school. She says that she thinks she'll always love someone, as much as she loves her father, but that she cannot be with him. That day ruined everything she loves about her father. She knows that it was wrong for him to have to cancel the trip, and that she won't ever feel the same way about someone else. She wonders if she will ever feel this way about another person. She finds out that Yuryka was married to another man the second time they met, and the narrator feels sorry for her because she didn't