"I'm a Mess" is the first line of the second chapter, which opens with the narrator lamenting that she's "a mess" because she can't figure out what's going on with Shimizu. She's been waiting for him to "say something" to her, but he hasn't. She sighs, "I need to... ho pace... ask him what... it was" , and then she asks him if he's had a good night's sleep. He says that he'd had one, and that he didn't want to be too important since he doesn't remember what he was supposed to say. The narrator sighs again, and she realizes that she was going to "confess my feelings" . She tries to kiss him, but the kiss is too painful for her to do. She wonders if he was "confused to a bunch" of times, and sighs that she is "the worst . . the worst ." The narrator wonders if she can "do something" about it, but she knows that she needs to see him.